Premonitions

by Æthereal

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PLEASE NOTE: THIS RECORD IS BEING RE-RECORDED. ANYONE WHO DOWNLOADS IT WILL BE SENT A LINK WITH UPDATED FILES LATER.

Premonitions is a story about humanity, or more appropriately, a story about inhumanity and what we, as humans, are capable of doing to others who are considered to be our “brothers and sisters,” at least in the eyes of a “God fearing” culture. It is also the classic tale of man versus himself. I worked very hard to make it a story of insanity, and yet clarity, while of course maintaining the fictional aspects of what was originally intended to be a short story, novel or, maybe even a full-length film. Until “Premonitions” was written, I’d never been able to actually put it all together in one or another form.

Writing a concept album is actually a lot harder than it sounds. Sure, you’ve got an overarching storyline to work from, but how do you do it? Some of the great albums of all time are concept albums--Seventh Son of a Seventh Son by Iron Maiden, The Wall by Pink Floyd, or Still Life by Opeth. These records tug at the strings of one’s mind, and it’s very difficult to see, sometimes, how all the pieces fit together. What method does one use? I chose the ‘images of a moment’ method, which I think is the easiest to do in song form.

In the end, I think this record was really put together with story in mind. I hope that it appeals to your sensibilities as fiction lovers as well as music lovers.

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released 15 August 2008
Music, lyrics, concept, mixing, producing and performances all by Phil Creswell.

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Æthereal is a progressive metal project by P. Creswell that deals with the human condition.

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Track Name: Premonitions
Awakened, awakened by a form in my head -- familiar, ethereal,
A woman, pressed against her warm, supple skin -- a face filled with care and love,
A moment, shadows on the windowsill -- the flames erupt beyond the shade..

Then she dies, She roasts in the flames, Twisting, burning -- her screams erupt in pain,
There’s no end, To torture or flame, That I could never see her again.

Silhouettes, casting from the moon of her form -- beautiful, ethereal,
Receding, the wall between death and life -- her sunken eyes sharp through the night,
Rising, rising from the bed I look down -- her soft breath shudders from her,
Ending, I will not see her die before me -- I cannot bear to watch her suffer,

She will rise, Scorched and burned, Twisting, turning -- my screams erupt in pain,
There’s no end, To torture or flame,
That I could never think of her again..

She will die, She’ll roast in the flames, Twisting, burning -- her screams erupting in pain,
There’s no end, To torture or flames, And I must never see her again..
Track Name: Haunted by Visions
Peace will not come as the poisons flow through my veins-
A spinning world won’t help me close my eyes-
I wish I knew the secrets of how to approach this Hell- Peace will not come as the poisons flow through my veins-

Tortured by visions – tortured by all that I’ve seen-
The poor and dejected – the fires that rise high in the east-
How can I escape – how will I ever get out of this place?
Tortured by visions – all that I wish for is peace-
Faceless and horrid – the guardians who float among the crowd-
I cannot see their eyes – but I feel them gazing down on me-

The poisons do nothing – I do not feel more centered or whole-
Tortured by visions – peace can’t penetrate my mind-

A line for all I’ve seen, three inside of me- I will look for peace, but will I ever succeed?
The visions, they haunt me, things I never wanted to see- I will look for peace, but will it accept me?

I can’t see it to save me--I can’t feel it
I’m numb and so dizzy-
I can’t touch it it’s missing--Ahh! The poisons are working!

Now, I can wish for sleep- As the world disappears around me-
Now, I feel as though I’m free- The curtains close and I’ll not be-
And I will dream of life before this-
Of the hope and love and life-
And I will dream of peace and blue sky- And pray for peace and death ... eternal
Track Name: Suicide Hymn
All is broken,
I’ve awakened and I’ve seen the “light”,
It’s a furnace, hot and licking, every wound in sight,
Pain and suffering, broken spirits winding through the streets,
Every sinner, every straggler staring at their feet,

Ignorant...
To the world I see...
Impotent,
I cannot change a thing...

As I walk on,
I see wreckage and those walking through,
It’s a pity, arms are hanging, flames are licking boots, Is it hopeless? Can’t I change this? Is there nothing I can do?
Thoughts are spinning, it’s all growing, helpless I walk through the..

Ignorant...
To the world that I see...
Impotent, I cannot change a thing...

I only watched it fade away,
There was no time to stop the change,
A split second and it was gray, I only watched it fade away...

Full of despair, I fade away,
To find a place,
To hide in safety,
Full of hatred,
I feel a fear,
It’s come to this...
I know how to get away..

No fool can say that he would hold his ground,
I’ve tried to stave this off but there no way out,
The choice seems simple now how can I not have seen? I’ll lay down forever and finally have sleep...

I will remove myself from this the realm unseen,
I’ll walk away from this and finally have peace,
The choice seems simple now how can I not have seen? I’ll lay down forever and finally have sleep...
Track Name: The Dark Apostle
My flesh-it begins to change,
I feel them crawling inside of me,
Hopeless and lifeless in my shell,
Anxiety it grows inside me,
‘Til there is nothing left...
‘Til there is nothing left...

They feed on me! They feed on me!

My brain-it begins to change,
I can’t let them win the fear is killing me,
This deviation cannot help,
Anxiety can’t grow inside me,
‘Til there is nothing left...
‘Til there is nothing left...
They feed on me! They feed on me! They feed on me!

Where out there can I go now?
I’ve seen it all fall apart...
Where can there be safe haven,
A safety that I’ve never known,
Where can I be removed now,
I’ve seen it all crumble inwards to...

The temporary peace can’t last,
I feel it start to leave my veins,
There’s no beginning, only past,
And it haunts me, it gnaws inside me..

Suppression,
Won’t last,
I must be.. The dark apostle!
Track Name: Mendicant
I robe myself in secrecy, a mendicant of old-
The alleys close about me, I shiver from the cold-
I await the pitied grace of the sweepings of the street- A sparrow in brown I wander, the grounds of the wake-

[The] destitute are lined before me,
Stretched skin and frightened eyes,
Disheveled faces turn to me,
The mendicant who stands alone,
A Priesthood we must form here,
Brotherhood of Opened Eyes,
Words fall upon deaf ears,
Trampled down beneath their fears-

The faces fade before me,
Disappear into the mists,
The brotherhood that never formed,
Died a child in its crib,
The failure wrecks my insides,
Rips me up, inside out,
My soul it twists in fury,
If not me then who will help?

I robe myself in secrecy, like mendicants of old,
The alleyways close in on me; I do not feel the cold,
A beggar priest I’ll never be, through the poor I’ll never speak,
I need to find my centerpiece, the anchor of myself-

I look down upon these ragged men here,
These beggars, drunks and sad old fools,
Dragging skin and rancid clothing, Drunken eyes like watery pools,
It’s then I know what I was meant to do,
There can never be a Brotherhood,
These ignorants are just like the rest,
They’ll never see the disgusting truth,

I walk alone now, there is no other way,
My broken spirit must be repaired,
I have been called but I have been misled, I won’t fall away again,
It’s now I see what I was meant to do,
There can never be a Brotherhood,
These ignorants are just like the rest,
They’ll never see the disgusting truth,
I’ve been a fool, Walking to my death,
I cannot wear these robes full of regret...

I... am no beggar priest...
I am no beggar, Nor am I a saint, I’ve never seen the statues bleed for me...
I am no beggar priest!
Track Name: Motion Blur
Two hands trembling
The chill has settled now
This house won’t change
Coffee won’t warm the fade
A wafting smoke
Released from blackened lungs,
These trembling hands
And open eyes that stare at them

Transluscent skin
I fade into the grey
Surrounded with
Faded walls that embrace me
They’ll never know I’ve been so clean and subtle
These trembling hands
Have no blood upon them

Lost in time,
In and out of focus Motion blur,
Moves so fast Nothings clear,
In and out of focus,
Motion blur,
Moves so fast -then off again

Things seem so easy
Motion stop simplicity
Happened again
The thing I swore against
A wafting smoke
Released from blackened lungs,
These trembling hands
And a neck that’s clutched between them

[Chorus twice]

How can you forgive me? How can you say anything anymore? How can I forgive me? When you are lying there so soft and still upon the floor?
Track Name: Dancing in Blood
It’s all come to me as I look back through history
Who were these leaders of men, these killers of many? It’s all come to me as I gaze back on history
All of these men knew the truth; these were no black deeds
Now I can see through the eyes of the deceased-
The blood on my hands isn’t murderous blood but salvation-
Now it is clear, why the bastards did what they did-
The blood on their hands was the gateway to freedom-

The choice is mine-
To become a savior-
The innocent-
Shall no longer suffer-

It all makes sense now gazing through the mists of the past-
At the millions dead in trenches laying on barbed wire-
These men were not killers, they were not sociopaths-
They were saving the innocent from the torture of this Hell-

The choice is mine-
And the killing shall commence-
Eyes will be opened-
And they shall no longer suffer-

Just one and the next, little children lay down before me-
If they knew what I was saving them from they wouldn’t lay crying-
I must remove the veil from their innocent eyes-
As the skin peels clean, they are free from a horrible torture-

I must feel no remorse as my hands work their hideous fate-
Their open eyes no longer see me-
I feel no remorse as I bathe in their blood-
They shall be free in eternity--

And I dance in their blood...
Track Name: White Room
So it will be the white room for me.
After all that I’ve suffered and all I’ve set free,
So it will be the white room for me,
I see now that there will never be release,

They know why I have been stuck here,
And so they cannot let me be,
There is no safer place for me,
Than faked insanity...

What can I do now that it’s done?
Those children that didn’t run,
Have I saved them from this place?
Or will they end up here again?

I wait for the sound of rushing winds,
To sweep me from this place,
To save me from this fate,
I’ve done your work, I’ve slaved and suffered! Suffered-

So it will be the white room for me,
In payment for all that I’ve set free,
So it will be the white room the for me,
I see now that there will never be release...
Track Name: A Bitter Taste
God willing, it will be done..
But I am, no longer one of the chosen few...
The chosen few...

Is this where I’ll sit for eternity?
Is this corner of hell made for me?
To question my fate... To question it all...

There’s a bitter after-taste to this..
Am I a martyr on a crucifix?
Or just another.. Destroyed man...?